I start this blog waiting for you to show yourself to me.
Let me know you are with Daddy and Joey.
Mama
I made funeral arrangements today. I hated it, sitting there knowing how much so many people fear death and think they are only their bodies.
Your Uncle John had a near death experience. He told me he saw you and Joey together with your dad. You showed up in spirit to him wearing a hoodie and jeans. He would not have known that was your attire on this earth. I appreciate that.
I had George Anderson read for me in Jan. You came thru like crazy. There is no way Anderson could have known your personality otherwise.
I still havent come to terms with your leaving me. I am still in a state of disbelief even a yr later. I am a mess but I talk to you both every day and ask you both to get me thru the day. I hate this. I am in so much pain I can hardly bear it. I think of you and Joey 24 hrs a day all the time. I beg you both to get me thru this. I feel lost and hurt. Please get me thru this.
Jan 14 2023
Okay kiddo you got me through to here. this little point in linear time.
it has been over 3 years now and you came through to the mediums, you came to me in meditation at the Monroe Institute with Joey and sent me an angel whose wings helped suck the regret and guilt out of me. You came to my brother Andy in the same hoodie you passed away in, you and Joey showed and still show me 1111 all the time, and Bobby sees it too.
you came to my brother John and told him "Tell my mom 1111 she will understand".
You come to me now and I can feel your energy and you are so nonchalant about it all, telling me to just surrender to it all, that there is nothing I can do about any of this, that death is a word and it doesn't exist, that I am not my body it is just a costume that if I am anywhere it is with you and Joey and your dad all the time, to stop identifying with my body at all just to let go of it and let it run it's course.
that I am yelling at my own highest self about all of this drama here and mostly NOT TO TAKE THIS PLACE SERIOUSLY
you have this almost fatherly attitude towards me and I can feel it you love me and so does Joey but you want me to let go of this world as anything more than a dream I am in.
Oh Mike, please please, and also you, Joey, give me a taste of the Love you are in I am still so lost and do not understand.
