meditation all day but i am not satisfied...perhaps my ego is desiring. it is like i have hit a blockage. perhaps Joey feels i am aware enough not to show up now. or perhaps my ego needs to be hit by a nuclear bomb.
sending it out there, already asked a friend online where to go.
the ego needs to be decimated. perhaps the nuclear strike is ayahuasca.
so be it if it is meant to be.
awaiting an answer from the universe.
destroying that illusory veil.
got to know my son.