impatience has a way of tiring one out, which is a good thing because one has to stop and give up.
some guy posted to let the rose bloom on it's own and try not to force it.
paradox is that the rose already bloomed but like a star that already died and one just sees the light now, same thing. nature teaches.
of course, nature is only what is inside of me anyway showing itself on the outside.
then that makes every thing a divine moment, i guess. everything becomes divine.
too tired to fight god now. might as well play video games.